8/16/2010

I might explode.

I hate school.  I hate school. I hate school.
Hate it. Not just my school, but school in general.
I don't want to go anymore. It feels like a punishment. Every single day i wake up at the same exact time and i do the same exact thing ALLL DAY.  Everything just suuuucks right now. The people in my classes need to grow up, and for once can i get a teacher who has their shiit together? please..
&*%&^%&^%.
I wake up in the morning and just lay there thinking about how bad my day is going to suuuck. I try to stay positive, I reeally do. I go to school with a freaking smile painted on my face everyday, but i just can't anymore. School has never made me this unhappy. The crazy thing is, i have no idea why i feel this way... I guess I just feel trapped. Like, i can't do anything, and i do not like that. I just want to do my own thing & do it when i want to. Life is toooo short to sit around in a classroom all day. I want to see the world. I want to get a job and do school when I want to do school. I just want to be free, that's all. I just don't think High School is the place for me. 
Whatever.


1 comment:

Jenni said...

keep your head up, you will survive!

have you thought about school online? i am sure your parents probs wouldn't let you do it though.

i know you are wise beyond your years, and could probably handle life at 15 like a pro, probably better than some my age actually! i have all of the confidence in the world in you. that being said, i know you will get over this hump.

you need me - you know that i am here.

love you.